When There is No Staying Safe

In times of high stress and change our natural inclination is to try and go back to being safe as quickly as possible, but often times it’s that very inclination to stay safe that gets us into crisis in the first place.  I could go into a long thing about my personal philosophy on predestination vs personal choice, but the tl dr version is there are certain elements of our lives that have more gravity than other, and those high gravity elements involve lessons that evolve us for better or worse as souls.  Until we accept the call to adventure, we’ll find ourselves repeating life experiences – like relationship patterns that continue despite different partners, or never being able to get or hold down even the easiest of day jobs.

When the shit hits the fan, generally it’s indicative that we have been obstinately ignoring the opportunities for growth we’ve been offered in favor of security and the known.. 

 To use the 2016 election as an example, the Democratic party played safe – assuming they had a shoo in thanks to Hillary Clinton’s name recognition and middle of the road political tendencies.  What they didn’t account for was the archetypal energy of Trump – as true a representative of a tyrant as you can get.  The nation was receiving it’s call to evolve, and instead of embracing the clear necessity to take risks and meet that challenge; basically the democratic party opted to try to stave it off for another four years.  We all know how that worked out for them.

On a more micro level, this has occurred in my life every time I’ve tried to shy away from music. When I treat my music as central to my abundance, I am rewarded with crazy opportunities and synchronicity. When I try to work a day job, slowly but surely, I begin to feel the drag of being off course.  By the time I quit my official day job I was acutely depressed and suffering from inexplicably stomach cramps every day I was at the office, and that was still doing music as a hobby.  Every major life crisis I’ve had was a result of trying to shirk by growth by taking a safer/shorter/more culturally acceptable route instead of trusting my intuition and leaning into the apparent danger.

Now, keep in mind: I’m not implying you should go sky diving in a windstorm or whatever the life choices equivalent to that would be.  There is a difference between rising to a challenge and just being reckless.  What I *am* saying is that it is tempting and human and societally encouraged to treat avoiding risk as the smart, healthy thing to do; when the reality is that the more you try to ignore those major life lessons the more intense and un-ignorable they are going to get.  You get to crossroads where it’s grow or die (sometimens literally in the case of addiction, sometimes more metaphorically – as in settling for a loveless marriage or staying in a dead end job – your body survives, but something in you is lost).  As something of a contemporary bard, it’s my job to help you find the courage to make the choice to grow.

As we enter this New Year and look back at the last, and the energy is around fresh starts and transformation, I hope you take a moment to asses the risks you’ve been avoiding, the calls to adventure you’ve been trying to postpone, and the longings which are your map to something beautiful, deep and real.   Everything is up in the air right now – all of the truths we assumed would remain true throughout our lifetime have been called into question. The only way out of this period of intense re-imagination is through it.  This is a time for dreamers and mythmakers to create a new identity centered in honest humility, grown out of processed grief and composted avoidance. 

Your heart knows the way. Trust it.

You're Not Crazy! A pep talk for Career Off-roaders
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The older I get, the more I start to identify with the crazy heroines of Holiday RomComs that kidnap, bribe, or hire a man to come home with them for the holidys.

Connecting with my extended family can feel like an Artistic Career report card, and since the markers I hold myself to for success are quite a bit different from what most people look for in success, it feels like a report card filled with F’s.

So I wanted to make a video filled with encouragement and the tips and tricks I’m using this year to honor my creative core and help focus on the love and the good memories I’d rather be making.

Do you go home for the Holidays? Do you have advice or tricks that you’ve used to enjoy the season instead of getting caught up in shame and insecurity?

Let me know in the comments <3

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Let's Get Magical! New Youtube Series - Magical Musical Oracle
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It’s not teribly suprising that I love Tarot cards. It’s like the one time my memory for symbols and folkloric referances comes in handy (well, that and song writing). So I’ve decided to combine my loves for this new, fun youtube series.

This first video is all about the 10 of Cups. The suit of Cups is all about emotions or soul. It’s both about the cup and what is contained within it. You might even look at the suit of cups as kind of a guage for how balaned ego and spirit are. So 10 is like the “HECK YEAH, THIS IS BOMB!” card of the suit. It’s like the happily ever after card.

Now, happily ever after can feel like an ending, and if you are anything like me that can be anxiety inducing. “

“Now that I’m happy that means this too shall pass so I shouldn’t get attached to this happiness because it will only end up going away!” - actual quote from my brain

But really this is about aknowledging the perfection of the moment - not necissarily that everything looks the way you would like it to look, or like every one is being excellent to each other, but that this present is the only present that you have so it is, by default, perfect. The other realities that you may wish for or worry about are not real, there is only this. And then, kind of tuning in frequency wise to what is wonderful about THIS.

Yes, friends…..I mean being grateful. But not for the stuff you genuinely HATE. If you don’t like your job, or the shitty way you are being treated by someone, you don’t have to be grateful for those things. It’s more like disempowering the things that bug you by shifting your attention to what makes you feel good. Example: Sitting on a bus, someone is being loud and annoying and I’m wet and just want to go home, but simultaneously I am also getting to read a book and enjoy music, I have the capacity to get where I need to go without the expense of a car for less than 10 dollars, I also witness some profound human compassion on the bus that lights me up. Both of those things are true, but if I focus on the positive things, the negative things are less irritating.

Maybe it’s just because I love parties, but it helped me a lot to stop trying to be grateful and instead focus on what I could celebrate every day, as if I were raising a toast. “To my excellent rain boots, and having a warm, dry place to sleep. To my creative outputs and my amazing community. Give it a shot - champagne not required but kind of fun.

Anyway - I hope you like this episode of Magical Musical Oracle . Don’t forget to add your music to the collabrative playlist!